Helicopters and honeysuckle

In these post-tornado days, the sound of helicopters and the scent of honeysuckle have been my steady companions as I have trod the monastery grounds gathering tornado debris. The helicopters are recurring reminders of the destruction the tornado brought to our small city. The honeysuckle, though, is a reminder of the sweetness that remains. And there has been sweetness in the midst of these difficult days – the generosity of neighbors providing hot showers and washing machines to those still without power, the camaraderie of Wi-Fi-users sharing tables and power outlets at local businesses, the passing of cell phones from hand to hand with landline service still disrupted, the sharing of food and shelter, neighbors helping neighbors, churches helping churches…

As the days have passed, the sound of helicopters has diminished. Today, I heard only a couple pass overhead. However the fragrance of honeysuckle still rides sweetly on the wind. Yesterday, the scent captured my attention yet again and I paused from picking up debris. I located the nearby vine, pulled off my work gloves, picked a few blossoms, and partook of their delicate sweetness.

The tornadoes that spun through our city destroyed much, but the fury of the wind did not carry away kindness and generosity. These have been ever-present, a sweet fragrance on the wind, a vine firmly rooted, a blossom ready to give forth its fruit…

The helicopters will soon be gone, off to follow the next news story. But the vine of kindness is rooted deeply here in Cullman. Its sweet fragrance is ever-present, riding gently on the quiet wind.


Postscript: We've made wonderful progress clearing up the monastery grounds, etc. and consider ourselves to be in good shape. We're still without phone service at the monastery, so it still means a trip to town to check email, make a blog post, etc., but we are so grateful to have electricty. The city, too, is on its way to to recovery and rebuilding, thanks to the kindness, generosity, and hard work of so many.

Strong storm meets stronger community

The tornado that ripped through Cullman last Wednesday has been rated EF-4 by those who are experts in such things. Something about 175 miles-per-hour winds, the scope of destruction, and perhaps some other meteorological measures combine to give it a tornadic rating second only to the 200+ miles-per-hour EF-5.

I’m not a tornado expert, so I have to take their word for it. I do, though, have a good eye for observing people, and I’d rate our monastic community’s response to the tornado as EF-5, and second to none. Something about encountering 175 miles-per-hour winds with calm aplomb, the scope of constructive and prayerful reaction, and perhaps some other intangible monastic measures combine to give it the highest possible community rating.

I think our monastic community has weathered this EF-4 storm as well as it could possibly be weathered. We took the ‘heads up’ from the local news seriously. We knew where to gather when the sirens went off. After the tornado passed through around 3:00 pm, we did a quick initial survey of the buildings before we had to head back to shelter due to another round of sirens. Meanwhile, Sister Regina had prepared a simple dinner of scrambled eggs and biscuits in the darkened kitchen, Sister Lynn Marie had retrieved our Vespers books from chapel. We were well prepared for another stretch of sitting patiently in the hallway, praying Vespers by flashlight and listening to the weather radio. When the all-clear finally came, we helped each other up darkened steps, flashlights in hand. We awakened the next day and gathered for Lauds, just as we do every morning. Then we got to work.

The days since the tornado have seen constant activity related to the storm and its lengthy aftermath of power and telephone outages. Some Sisters have kept our liturgy going. Some have kept stove-brewed coffee flowing. Some have handled business-related issues. Some have kept in touch with civic officials and helped us participate in city-wide assistance efforts. All of us that are able have worked diligently to clear our grounds. Our Sisters on mission in Birmingham have lent a supportive hand. Our monastic administrators have provided secure and steady leadership. And most importantly, we have kept up our rounds of liturgical and personal prayer.

However the EF-5 rating doesn’t apply only to our monastic community because we have not weathered this alone. Our wonderful staff has been like a second family to us, pitching in in a thousand ways over the past week, often going heroically beyond their usual job descriptions. Golden Construction, ArchitectureWorks, and others have helped us quickly tend to repairs and keep the most essential equipment operating under generator power. Numerous family, friends, and other monastic communities have lent support

And then there is the City and County of Cullman, a community under extraordinary stress, that while suffering from a 38-mile EF-4 gash, has organized a wide array relief efforts, kept accurate communication flowing, adapted to evolving circumstances, maintained safety and security, and kept hope alive for many who have lost nearly everything. Much of this effort has been on the official level, but much has simply been neighbor helping neighbor. Various churches have provided free supplies of everything from diapers to food. A family in a pickup truck has driven around town distributing bottled water to anyone who looked thirsty. Local restaurateurs have been cooking free meals in the high school parking lot using food donated by townspeople. And so much more…

Something about encountering 175 miles-per-hour winds with dignity and composure, the scope of compassionate and skillful response, and other intangible civic measures combine to give our monastic community, our employees and friends, and the people of Cullman the highest possible community rating – EF-5. Second to none.


Postscript: I finally sat down with newspapers last night and caught up on several days of news. It seems like there are "EF-5 communities" scattered across Alabama, the Southeast, and beyond. Many have lent and organized much-needed assistance of all kinds. Our monastic community is so very grateful to all who have assisted, supported, and prayed for us and all those in our city and state during these challenging days. Please continue your prayers, especially for those who lost family members, homes, and businesses in this devastating storm.

On Tuesday afternoon, thanks to the efforts of the Cullman Power Board and TVA, power was restored to our neighborhood, including the monastery. We are still without landline phone service and internet capability. As soon as we are able to access our website software, photos will go up on the website. Meanwhile, we all remain well and in good spirits. Thanks be to God.

Storm Update

Thanks to so many who have emailed us of your prayers. As of Tuesday morning, we remain without power or landline phone service at the monastery. We have settled into a non-electric routine: hand washed clothes, candlelit meals, a prayer schedule adapted to the natural light in the chapel, etc.

Cleanup of our grounds continues and roof repairs are going well. We are hopeful we will have power restored soon. It has been restored in the northern parts of Cullman. I am writing this from a business that has both electricty and Wi-Fi.

All the Sisters remain well, and we remain in good spirits. Our prayer life continues without interruption. We will be glad, though, when the lights come back on!

Thanks for your continued prayers! Please especially continue your prayers for those who have lost homes, family members, and/or businesses. We remain very aware that the inconveniences we are experiencing are so minor compared to what so many others are going through.

Postscript: For an unknown reason, I am having trouble loading images. Will try again as soon as I am able.

Storm report

Just a quick blog post to let our friends know that the Benedictine Sisters of Cullman are safe and sound following Wednesday's storm. For those who have not heard, a tornado passed through our monastery property on Wednesday afternoon. A summary of monastery damage can be found on the Community News page of our website. As of Saturday morning, we remain without power or phone service. I am posting this blog entry from a wi-fi post that has been set up at our local radio station, WKUL.

We are doing fine at the monastery. For those of you who know us, we are simply being who we are - very Benedictine. We are working hard, working joyfully, working prayerfully, encouraging one another, caring for our elders, enjoying meals by candle light, ceasing our work for liturgical prayer, letting our a capella chant fill the chapel, holding our neighbors and fellow Alabamians in our hearts, adapting our schedule to the rising and setting of the sun....

We have made tremendous progress in the past two and a half days toward clearing the huge amount of storm debris that the tornado scattered across our property. Roof repair is well underway. The most crucial tree removals have begun. We have had help from many quarters: Golden Construction Company, ArchitectureWorks, Kinetic Communications, our amazing and incredibly hardworking staff, and the nearby Cenocolo Community. We appreciated a visit from Bishop Robert Baker, who conveyed the prayers and support of our diocese. We have also heard from Benedictines and friends from around the country and as far away as Rome.

The Sisters at the monastery rode out the storm gathered in an interior hallway. Continuing tornado warnings throughout the evening meant that we spent much of the evening still gathered together in a safe place. We prayed Vespers by flashlight, sitting in the hallway. Because much of Wednesday evening was spent indoors, we could not do a full damage assessment until Thursday morning. But once morning came, we prayed Lauds, ate a candlelight breakfast with coffee made the old-fashioned way, and got to work.

We have moved seamlessly into what is a "new normal." Work gloves and sturdy shoes are the order of the day. Everyone has settled into roles appropriate for them - some of us hauling heavy metal and plywood out of the yard, some sweeping glass from broken windows, some helping in the darkened kitchen, some serving as message couriers, etc. All of us are well. All of us are in good spirits. We are deeply saddened by the scope and depth of the destruction - a scope that is apparent each time we reach to the earth to pick up yet another handful of shingles from someone's shattered home. We ask our friends to continue to pray for us, but we especially request your prayers for those who lost life, limb, home, family member, church, and workplace.

Please know how grateful we are for your prayers and support. Once usual communication modes are reestablished, we will be back in routine touch with our dear families and friends.


Postscript: Photos have not been a priority, but here are a few. The debris that is shown is not from the monastery. It is from homes, churches, and businesses of Cullman, and perhaps even further away, brought here by the wind.

All of us

How many Sisters does it take to prepare for and celebrate the Sacred Triduum and Easter? It takes all of us!

Over these past few days, it took the Prioress to set the tone and take the lead, a liturgist to coordinate the liturgies and music, sacristans to polish and prepare, musicians to hit the right notes, cantors to lead in song, lectors to proclaim, Eucharistic Ministers to reverently minister, cross bearers to carry the weight, candle bearers to strike the match and tend the flame, decorators to decorate the chapel and dining room and living areas, dishwashers to wash dishes, table setters to set tables, kitchen helpers to cook and prepare, emergency maintenance techs to repair a last-minute microphone problem, egg-dyers to dye eggs, errand runners to run errands, the schola (choir) to sing, our Sisters in the infirmary to pray along with us, the “chief fire builder” to prepare the New Fire, the “Stations coordinator” to organize the outdoor Stations of the Cross, the entire Community to sing and pray and respond and acclaim, and every single one of us to pitch in in a myriad of ways as we journeyed with great solemnity and reverence through these most sacred of days.

It does indeed take all of us, but it’s not because of the amount of work to be done. Rather, it’s because we enter the deep resonance of these days not as individuals but as a community, united as one in Triduum lament and Easter celebration. We approach these special days like we do everything else, with every single Sister pitching in to foster our life in community, especially our liturgical life. Whether our community happened to number 5, or 45, or 105, it would still take all of us - because it’s about our community's life of prayer, not simply accomplishing the work of prayer.

Also, it’s not just Sisters who have been celebrating here at Sacred Heart. A monk of St. Bernard Abbey has been with us as our ordained celebrant throughout the Triduum and Easter. Many guests have attended our liturgies. Some have helped us dye eggs, or build the New Fire, or eaten meals with us in silence, or walked with us on the Stations of the Cross. And most importantly, our prayers and voices gathered here at the monastery have been joined with those of the entire Church – all of us – as our Triduum lamentations transitioned into Easter’s jubilant cry:

Christ is risen. Alleluia! Alleluia!
He is risen, indeed. Alleluia! Alleluia!




Postscript – Would you like some actual ‘how many Sisters does it take’ numbers? By my unofficial tally, over the past few days we have had 1 liturgist, 3 sacristans, 2 organists, 1 schola with 6 singers, 13 lectors, 7 cantors, 7 Eucharistic Ministers, 1 flautist, 3 hand-bell ringers, 2 dining room decorators, 2 chapel decorators, 8 table setters, 2 emergency maintenance techs, 4 candle bearers, 1 bread baker, 1 fire builder (with assistance from 1 Oblate), several errand runners, many kitchen helpers, countless dishwashers…for a grand total of 45 joyful Sisters with hearts and voices united in prayer and song and the work of liturgy. It indeed takes all of us! And now, in quiet jubilation and happy fatigue, we here at the monastery are enjoying a tranquil, low-key Easter Monday, resting in the blessings and joys of Eastertide. (For more photos, visit our Monastery Moments photo page)

Easter arrival

Sometimes, a guest is received on the front doorstep with great fanfare and elaborate celebration. But sometimes, a familiar friend slips through the back door – no big to-do, no fanfare – just a reach for the hidden key, a turn of the knob and an unhurried step into an open heart.

For me, Easter arrived like the second guest. Sure, I did my part to welcome our Risen Lord at the front door – the great Vigil of Easter, with its darkness and light, silence and song, organ and flute, cantors, musicians, water, incense, Easter fire, Easter candle, all uniting in a great conflagration of Easter joy. I was on the front walk along with my Sisters, our guests, our priest celebrant – all of us gathered at the front door of Easter. But for all the fanfare and jubilation of the Vigil, it was this morning, when I opened the chapel door on my way to Lauds, that Easter slipped quietly through the back door of my heart and pulled up a chair as if to visit for a while.

It was with the bells that Easter slipped in, the bells that call us to Lauds, bells not heard for three long days, silenced by the somber liturgies of the Sacred Triduum. They started ringing just as I opened the chapel door, and their familiar sound moved unhurriedly through the quiet morning as through an open door. No big to-do. No fanfare. Simply a familiar resonance, like an accustomed voice too long unheard, and suddenly my heart was filled with arrival, with presence, with familiarity, with Easter.

Perhaps among the many fruits of our formal liturgy - the ‘front door,’ if you will - is an intimacy with the Lord Jesus such that not only do we receive Him on the front steps with grand and solemn gestures, but we know Him when He slips oh-so-gently into our hearts, an unhurried friend who lets himself in with the key he knows we keep tucked above the lintel. As we continue the liturgies, the 'front door' celebrations, of this joyful Eastertide, may they deepen our intimacy with the One who slips quietly into our hearts with unhurried step, a familiar friend who fills us with arrival, with presence, with the profound blessings of Easter.


Postscript: Great fanfare has definitely characterized our Easter celebration here at the monastery. The solemn gravity of the Triduum liturgies gave way to a beautiful Easter vigil last night, beginning with the blessing of the New Fire on the front chapel steps beside spreading magnolia branches, and concluding with Sister Magdalena’s thunderously jubilant organ music after the final hymn. The liturgies today have been equally beautiful. But our celebration hasn't been confined to the chapel. This morning we gathered for our traditional Easter breakfast of ham, Sister Kathleen’s home-baked Easter bread, and hard-cooked eggs that were hand-dyed and decorated by Sister Eileen and her crew of retreatants and oblates. Meanwhile, Sister Priscilla and a crew of Sisters prepared a beautiful dining room for a festive Easter dinner. At times and seasons such as this, it is ‘all hands on deck’ here at the monastery! Everyone pitches in to create a celebration befitting our Risen Lord.

Becoming prayer

This is my favorite day of the year. You might think it would be Easter, or Christmas, or my birthday, or any day that the sun, rising over the pasture, just happens to catch my spirit ablaze. But no, today, Holy Thursday, is my favorite day, because this is the day when, every year, I feel as if I become liturgy.

I serve the community as sacristan, and these days of the Sacred Triduum mean long hours, attention to many details, and tending to little else except prayer, meals and liturgy. My office agenda has been cleared. This blog will be silent. My room is clean. I am ready to focus on nothing but moving with the motion of these days, helping carry the liturgy along, and in turn, being carried by the liturgy.

But it is not just the details and focus that carry me along. During the Triduum, the very doing of the work, the engagement with the hours and the details of these sacred liturgies, is like entering a cave, a castle, a crucible, another land. It is as if I cross a moat into the very heart of the Church's prayer and pull up the drawbridge behind me, not to emerge until Easter Sunday. These sacred days are like the cleft in the wall into which I place my entire being in prayer, and hopefully become the prayer that I pray.

I think (hope) most of us engage in our work as a form of prayer, as an offering to God. But as sacristan, these few days call me to focus particular attention on my work. There is an ancient liturgical maxim, Lex Orandi, Lex Credendi, or “the law of prayer is the law of belief.” In other words, what we pray is what we believe. We do not just shape the liturgy, the liturgy shapes us as we enter into the fullness of liturgical prayer, expressing and living our belief.

I happen to have the blessing of engaging with the practicalities of liturgy. This interpenetration of both being and doing, each drawing me deeper into the other, leads me, after a while, to feel as if my life becomes liturgy, and the myriad tasks, a litany. Prayer becomes belief, which becomes gesture and act, which in turn, becomes prayer.

And today, on Holy Thursday, my favorite day of the year, I stand at the cleft in the wall and place within it the thousand gestures that will fill the coming days, each gesture a prayer, each task a bead on the rosary, a litany of love, hopefully becoming the prayer that I pray.


Postscript: Sister Emilie and Sister Sara Aiden work with me in the sacristy, and together we polish, iron, clean, organize, prepare… Last year’s oils have been buried. The holy water fonts are empty and clean. A fresh corporal has been ironed for the tabernacle. The humeral veil is draped and ready. The wooden clapper, kept in our archives, is poised and prepared to replace the bells which will not ring during the Triduum. And so much more… The three of us work shoulder to shoulder to help carry our community through these sacred days.